Today I feel 'right'. I've spent the day running back n forth trying to film, didn't get much done but had a great laugh. I got sick of the spider-man tattoo on my arm. NOT because I regret getting it or dislike the tattoo. It's very personal to me and signifies more childish and care-free days. I have an obsession with Spiderman and the MARVEL universe. Good Vs. Evil. Success Vs. Failure.. all whilst wielding powers I wish wish wish I could have.
I'm covering the spiderman up because the tattoo itself wasn't done very well.. which is a shame as the tattooist from nottingham is AMAZING.. he just didn't put any effort into this and I can't see me ever being bothered to progress and expand it.
I've chosen a theme close to my heart. I decided on a film reel with film cells rolling down my arms with clouds and stars to give it a majestic and beautiful vibe! This is because I film, direct and edit and it's one of my ONLY passions. I can't wait to get the shading done and have it finished!
I had a chat the other day which clarified things for me. Of course it wasn't entirely what I wanted to hear but more what I NEED to hear. Having things painted in black and white can be difficult sometimes but we can take either side and move on. As of the moment I'm still in the 'grey' area but after the chat.. I'm happy to be here. I can sit patiently until I'm shown which path to take.. and by then.. I'll have to deal with it as it comes. I know which path I want to be on... and until then.. so long as the grey doesn't blur too much into the black and white.. then I'm fine with being at these cross-roads.
I'm not here on my own.. I got my mates and plenty of work distractions and I'm feeling like I'm sat on a calm sea after a long stormy night.
Good few days ahead of me. I'm staying resolute and I'm determined to enjoy them!
Positivity. Calmness
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