Like the jigsaw in the box

The rug of stability was recently pulled out from underneath me and now I've begun to question everything regarding existentialism. Purpose. Point. Goals. Aims. Successes & Failures.. and then I've considered at great length why and how things go wrong when they don't fit into any dictionary defined 'normal' or 'rational' categories.

until this month my life was a jigsaw puzzle finally completed.. I knew what, when and how I wanted things.. and more importantly.. after years of indecision and failed relationships.. WHO. The box was shaken.. and not for any clearly defined reason.. and now the pieces are all apart and I don't even think I want to put it back together. I have no interest in being with anybody else.

I've never understood the 'have some "you" time!' phrase.. I needed to be with somebody before.. I ALWAYS sought to be with somebody.. like sifting for treasure amongst rubbish.. and having found a gem I don't need to be with anybody else... so I'm trying some 'ME' time and just taking joy from my friends, my drinks, my video work, the weather, exercise, weight lifting, getting tattoos and more..

I'm turning a corner... but just because I'm no longer on the same street.. I'm still in the neighbourhood.

positivity.